My Friendship
M A N O N T H E M O O N
For some, friendship could be a necessity. To some, a way of life. Something as important as the food we take, the air we breathe, the clothes we wear and the work we do. Some say that true friends are as rare as diamonds. Some even say that looking for true friends is like searching for a needle in the mountain of haystack. So many other splendid superlatives have been accorded to friendship but to someone who believes that life exists irrelevant of others, all these superfluous statements appear only in hallmark greeting cards and actually do not make any sense.
D I S O R I E N T A T I O N
“when I was young, I’ve never needed anyone…,” that partial lyrics of the song “All by Myself aptly describes my childhood life. Literally I had no friends, no fond memories, no playmates, no buddies. I was founded all alone. When I was growing up, it wasn’t so hard for me to accept that I needed to be alone though many times I felt scared, insecure and longing. I was made to believe that it’s just the way it should be. Soon, I have become immune to being alone, enjoying no one’s company and looking far beyond the stars believing that my fate rests within the palm of my hands and not the with the help of other people.
I N E V I T A B I L I T Y
Though my heart has been locked from top to bottom so that no one could ever find their way in, when I entered college, things have slightly changed. Maybe the increasing levels of testosterone in my body was pumping a little ferocity to my knowledge stocked head. I broke a little part of my shell and wondered about having people to join me in the most boring hours or during the jolliest one. So I have made some friends, though most of them I have almost forgotten right after graduation.
C I R C U M S T A N C I A L
When I started working my profession, I have gained some more friends because they were there and I was there. It’s wasn’t by choice but by chance. Being an employee of a company, it is imperative to know and exercise harmonious relationship with co-employees. That’s basically it. Nevertheless, there are some that are truly good and are worth the efforts.
O U T S I D E T H E C U B E
So there was life outside the office? Doing the things that I have never done before either because it wasn’t known to me or I didn’t have the means to do so, I have discovered an impetus for a mad following. Brilliant, I never thought I had it all along. So the roster of acquaintances grew at a surprising rate. Most would even be forgotten even before I knew them. These people are just people and are not friends. Friends, really, in my own vocabulary is missing or even if there, it’s so difficult to define.
W H A T A R E F R I E N D S F O R
It’s almost a hogwash line but answering it seems to be so unfamiliar. Why I need friends? Or better yet you should ask, why I don’t need friends? Because that is what I know. That is how I grew up, that is what I am used to. I am not used to being loved, being taken care of, being spoiled, being babied, I am not used to being a friend. I can live without friends, that’s all I know. I am sorry for that hard fact.
T H E C H O S E N F E W
But I am not closing my entire doors for friendship, there are still some who understands me beyond the complex of my personality. Some people who came, walked away and came back. Some who are willing to bear with my eccentricities. Some who respects the unlovable side of others. Some who sees beyond the eyes and listens beyond the ears. Some people who loves me for all my indifference, incorrigibility, disgusting attitudes and annoying character. Truly I am not for the faint of heart.
O V E R N I G H T F R I E N D S
Just as there are friends who are built to last, some have to be liquidated as soon as possible. These are the people who walk away after they get what they want. Nameless and faceless, oh well, who should be blamed?
For some, friendship could be a necessity. To some, a way of life. Something as important as the food we take, the air we breathe, the clothes we wear and the work we do. Some say that true friends are as rare as diamonds. Some even say that looking for true friends is like searching for a needle in the mountain of haystack. So many other splendid superlatives have been accorded to friendship but to someone who believes that life exists irrelevant of others, all these superfluous statements appear only in hallmark greeting cards and actually do not make any sense.
D I S O R I E N T A T I O N
“when I was young, I’ve never needed anyone…,” that partial lyrics of the song “All by Myself aptly describes my childhood life. Literally I had no friends, no fond memories, no playmates, no buddies. I was founded all alone. When I was growing up, it wasn’t so hard for me to accept that I needed to be alone though many times I felt scared, insecure and longing. I was made to believe that it’s just the way it should be. Soon, I have become immune to being alone, enjoying no one’s company and looking far beyond the stars believing that my fate rests within the palm of my hands and not the with the help of other people.
I N E V I T A B I L I T Y
Though my heart has been locked from top to bottom so that no one could ever find their way in, when I entered college, things have slightly changed. Maybe the increasing levels of testosterone in my body was pumping a little ferocity to my knowledge stocked head. I broke a little part of my shell and wondered about having people to join me in the most boring hours or during the jolliest one. So I have made some friends, though most of them I have almost forgotten right after graduation.
C I R C U M S T A N C I A L
When I started working my profession, I have gained some more friends because they were there and I was there. It’s wasn’t by choice but by chance. Being an employee of a company, it is imperative to know and exercise harmonious relationship with co-employees. That’s basically it. Nevertheless, there are some that are truly good and are worth the efforts.
O U T S I D E T H E C U B E
So there was life outside the office? Doing the things that I have never done before either because it wasn’t known to me or I didn’t have the means to do so, I have discovered an impetus for a mad following. Brilliant, I never thought I had it all along. So the roster of acquaintances grew at a surprising rate. Most would even be forgotten even before I knew them. These people are just people and are not friends. Friends, really, in my own vocabulary is missing or even if there, it’s so difficult to define.
W H A T A R E F R I E N D S F O R
It’s almost a hogwash line but answering it seems to be so unfamiliar. Why I need friends? Or better yet you should ask, why I don’t need friends? Because that is what I know. That is how I grew up, that is what I am used to. I am not used to being loved, being taken care of, being spoiled, being babied, I am not used to being a friend. I can live without friends, that’s all I know. I am sorry for that hard fact.
T H E C H O S E N F E W
But I am not closing my entire doors for friendship, there are still some who understands me beyond the complex of my personality. Some people who came, walked away and came back. Some who are willing to bear with my eccentricities. Some who respects the unlovable side of others. Some who sees beyond the eyes and listens beyond the ears. Some people who loves me for all my indifference, incorrigibility, disgusting attitudes and annoying character. Truly I am not for the faint of heart.
O V E R N I G H T F R I E N D S
Just as there are friends who are built to last, some have to be liquidated as soon as possible. These are the people who walk away after they get what they want. Nameless and faceless, oh well, who should be blamed?
1 comments:
"Just as there are friends who are built to last, some have to be liquidated as soon as possible"..
in as much as u admit and say ur pieces of flaws, other have theirs too..and so vice-versa.
i suppose transparency and acceptance is vital for any kind and form of relationship - platonic or not.
life is short, young days are fleeting..we all rather spend our heydays with a rather imperfect someone, than having no one. and may you truly find someone who will step an extra-mile to keep u all the more - the one who chose to remain with you not just for who u are, but what u are.
and when you believe you find, may u choose to keep "this friend" closer to your heart, because when you will let him go..he may no longer return to your hands again.
true. real friends are like good jobs elsewhere. - they are rare to find. so if we do, we should learn to count our joy and blessing out of it..amidst the xpcted trials and troubles.
while its lonely being an island alone, its even more difficult to keep grudges.
thanks for sharing your wisdom and insights...and for allowing me to share mine, for the last time, perhaps.
albeit, the choice is ours. our choice that could break or make us..i wish you all best choice in life.
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